Im so confused..

WHY AM I LIKE THIS..??

For a second i thought I have the courage to approach and say I had feelings for you..
I was sure that I am going to say it all out to you...
But when I was about to say, something was holding me back...
I am also not sure what was holding me back...
If only I could figure this out quickly...
So that I could really say to you what I had long feel for you...
I really want you to know my feelings for you...
What I felt deep down in me...
What had long been my deep down in me...
My soul...My Life...My soul...
Can I know, what is the matter that is holding me back...
I cant take this anymore...
Im so confused...